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Herm.. what to say.. it seems that my heart is broken right now... she is the devil... never met such person.. I gave her flower she give me SHIT...

Hello.... it has been long since I write something in here.... Yeah after the holiday and all the activities that I have to involved with only this night I have the time to log in. Well what to say?? Yeah,  1 of the important thing is that right now I'm free from assignments ( actually left only 1 assignment; Malay Language) ha..ha.. but right now a little bit busy with the Sports Day cause I'm in the Students' Body right now and we have to handle the Sports Day. Really busy until I have to stop some activities that I like. Hem..well in April we will have our BM and HDV test but I have not started to read any notes. What to do... it is part of being a student. But I hope that, I can manage my time well after this... Ok that is all the thing...

dEATH pLEASE cOME aND tAKE mE!!!!

i dON'T wANT liVE aGAIN......

tIME pLEASE fLY aWAY....

fORGET bOUT mE....

cAUSE i dON'T cARE!!!!

Hello there...I'm just boring and feel like I want to sleep so I decided to just type some thing in my blog...Actually I'm in the library right now...It is kind of cold and the atmosphere is suitable for those who wanted to  doze off like me he..he..there goes my reading.....

Well what I want to report on my life...I think the most important is that we Cohort 4 Students just received another assignment, our Philosophy Assignment which mean right now we have 3 assignments to do...bravo..bravo Suhaimi!!!! Well luckyly I'm on the right track in completing the task given to me. I have already started on the HDV and Lingustic assigments and I have managaed to gathered a lot of info from books and and thesis for HDV.

Hem..ok then I want to go back to my room...maybe before that I will buy some food first ok then ta..ta.. 

Hei.. it is me again...who you going to expect? It is my blog...hem..lately I have been thinking about myself and how I should live this life...but only now I have found the answer to this bothering question....yes I have found it..well it took me a long time to find it but thanks to God I managed to find it.

I have read a book entitle 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teen by Sean Covey and it had opened my eyes and my soul in facing this world...I realised that in every tunnel there must be a light for me....this world is not cruel place, we are the one who make it cruel to ourself. We control our life, not others (beside God) not even our parents but the greatest mistake that each of us always make is giving the power to other people to control our life. Yes..it is true, but we didn't realised it until it is too late and we suffer at the end. There are some of us who managed to overcome this problems but only few of those are lucky. For me my mistake in life is building up my world on my friends not around them....I just realised that friends are only friends not more than that...they maybe there when you needed them but will they always be there???? Don't get me wrong...I'm not saying that I hate my friends but I just realised that it seems that I'm depending my happiness too much on them and always thinking about them rather the well being of my own. In HDV I learned that teens are more closer to their friends rather than their own family (well actually you don't need to read it from books)...it is the same with me... Last Friday I went back home to realised that my relationship with my siblings and mum is not the same like before. I feel that I'm far very far away from them...I can't connect and communicate well enough with them...I don't know why but I feel it needed to be change...and I have found the way...

My life.... I must get grip of it....I have the power to control it...I should not rely on others...I must stand strong by myself...

Hemm..boring!!!! Life is full with crap....today I feel like to do some typing but I didn't know what I'm going to type...well Intan and Kak Yah are beside me..and we just talk about Fayadh and SAW III hemm...about people who was about to vomit during the show... Still can't find what to type....and these two girls are still talking about SAW....what is SAW??? Well in Malay we can define it as GERGAJI or TELAH NAMPAK ha..ha...funny....sounds like a stupid joke to me...

Continue...Intan still talking about Fayadh he..he..and how she really love purple ....and now I know Kak Yah love blue just like me...well we must be made for each other hu..hu...hemm dah lah I'm tired of typing .....stop... The end...

It is already the third week in IPBA and I feel like I'm losing my grip. Well lectures had started long time ago and I'm still in a confusion state...still trying to catch up with all the things that I have already learned......plus now we are busy with 2 assignments Human Development and Linguistics. I don't know what is wrong with me...some times I will just sit in my room trying to think what is the aim in my life and could not find the answer. I feel like an idiot roaming this earth...I am pathethic....I feel like killing myself.

Although this semester begins with a good note I still can't find the happiness inside me...well I got my friends back, I have managed to pass my final foundation examination and to top it all up I got the university that I wanted to go soo badly...but everythings seems to colapse these few days...everythings seems to be against me. My soo... called friends are not the same as they used to be...it seems that during the holiday they some how changed drastically or they might have been abducted by aliens and their brains had been altered....seriously...I feel like i don't know them. For my final exam..to tell the truth I'm disappointed with the result that I got...I really worked hard for it and those who just study a lil bit here and there still can overcome me...hemm..typical of life...and to make it worse most of people who will go with me to the university that I got are not in the same league with me and I only got a few bunch of those who can accept me as myself =( 

So for those who are reading this please help me, I really need your help.....

Once – Dealova

aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu...
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu....
karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu...
ooohh..karena hati tlah letih....

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang selalu bisa kau sentuh...
aku ingin kau tau bahwaku selalu memujamu....
tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati...
oh bayangmu seakan akan....

kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yang memanggil rinduku padamu..ooohh
kau seperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada....
**
hanya dirimu yang bisa membuatku tenang...
tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang..........
dan sepi......

kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yang memanggil rinduku padamu..ooohh
kau seperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada....
**
hanya dirimu yang bisa membuatku tenang...
tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang..........
dan sepi......

The Seniors' Team.

 Last week the juniors of July 2006 intake gave a challenge to the seniors. They challenged them to a football match and the challenge sounded like this..."Ada bran ke?!" and for those who might not understand what it means let me tell you, it means "Do you dare?!". Took me a long time to understand what  is the meaning of that sentence. 

The match was held on 1st November, 5.00pm at the field a.k.a IPBA Stadium (but we still start a little bit late because we had to wait for those late comers...punctuality is still the problem).

The Happy Boys

Connelly and I.

Thanks to god at last the final examination is over!!! After experiencing a very head breaking situation for 4 days this week we are free at last...free from the torment that every students had to experience in order to finish -up their education. To tell the truth I am not fully happy with my performence in this exam. I think I had answered all the papers rather poorly hu..hu.. and if I pass the papers it will be just because I had luck beside me.

First papers was LDS@Grammar which I had expected the level of difficulty that had been install for me. But I think overall I did pretty well in this paper to avoid a FAIL!!!! ES@Literature was a very dissapointing paper for me. After only focusing on Pride and Prejudice and neglecting Macbeth for the essay question I had done the most stupidist thing in the world by choosing the Macbeth question in the essay part. Actually I think I can answer both questions but I choose macbeth which I did not study at all. For SS@SocialStudies I did managed to answered all the questions...the three essays that were needed to pass the paper. Compare to the mock exam I think I had done it better this time but still I cannot say that I can pass it with good marks. Yesterday we sat for LDV@LanguageDevelopment paper and what I can say is this is the only paper which I satisfied with no more than that.

Well, what I can say after this exam I think that I supposed to pass all the papers but I would not be so sure of it. Hope that I will not have to come back to IPBA during the holiday!!!! (",)